Just Waiting....but she will be here January 18th or before!

Yesterday, Thursday January 12th I hit 38 weeks. I went and had a doctors appointment and I am dilated to a 2 1/2 (can be stretched to a 3) and I'm 50% effaced. I was progressed like this with Jaxon so it's not really a surprise. This pregnancy has been very different in so many ways and I'm really struggling right now. 

Sweet baby girl has been low the entire pregnancy but now that she is dropping and getting ready to arrive, the pain is just overwhelming sometimes. I have tried really hard to not to complain because I know there are people that can't get pregnant and I should be grateful - and I AM, but I would still like to document how I'm feeling. 

Just in the last day or so its gotten to the point that walking is so painful, which this is frustrating because I want to keep walking to get the baby quicker, but the doctor said if it's really painful it will be counterproductive. I feel like such a bad mom and wife. Playing with Jaxon now consists of me just sitting on a couch, chair, or bed while he runs around. I can't sit on the floor and play or there is no way I'm getting up. Sleep??? Whats sleep? That doesn't really happen for me anymore because its painful to lay down and my hips hurt so bad that I have to turn every 20 mins and the motion of turning is so painful. And my back... my poor back kills. 

Luckily Dan has been out of school during all of this so it has been SOOOO nice to have him home helping with Jax, cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, and just being an awesome support to me. 

The doctor doesn't want the baby to get bigger than 7-7.5lbs because of my body, so she will be inducing me on January 18th if baby girl hasn't arrived before then. That is only 5 days away! So baby girl will be here on or before JANUARY 18TH wahoo!!! 

Also, I have been trying to treasure these last few weeks/days with Jaxon as my only child. He has actually been such a good help! He loves cleaning up now and helping me. He says hi to Addison while waving to my belly giving it kisses. I just know he is going to be such a GREAT big brother. I know it will be an adjustment but I can tell he already loves Addison so much. 

I'm soooooo excited to finally meet this sweet girl. To hold her, kiss her, get up at night with her, change her poopy diapers, everything that comes with being a mom. Am I a little worried I don't remember how to take care of a baby.... YES haha, but I'm sure it will all come back. My family is growing and I couldn't be happier. I thank the Lord daily for sending this sweet little girl to our family and I just want her here as soon as possible!