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2:15am

Here it is, 2:15am and I am sitting up worrying like crazy about Jaxon. I just got him back to sleep but now I can't sleep. He has had a fever on and off for several days now and he has a really bad cough that makes him throw up sometimes cause he coughs so hard. He woke up this time coughing really bad so I went to get him and comfort him only to find that he was burning up as well. I gave him some medicine but after a few min's he started coughing so hard again that he threw up a little bit. So did all the medicine come up? Should I give him more? If it didn't come up, giving him more could be really dangerous. I have called his "primary care physician" who has never met Jaxon because he has only been to one well visit here and apparently even though they made the appointment - the doctor was not taking new patients, so Jaxon was checked by the nurse. I hate not having a good personal relationship with a doctor. We LOVED Jaxon's doctor in Utah and were very sad we would be loosing him. So now here I am... waiting for the on call doctor to call me back while I sit and worry like crazy about my sweet boy in the next room who, for now, is sleeping and hopefully having good dreams.

Law School Widow

So sometimes I feel like a widow. I'm sure wives of other 1st year law students know what I am talking about. Luckily Dan has been really good and tries really hard to come home for dinner and spend some time with us before we go to bed. He spends 12 hours at the law school Monday - Friday, and Saturday he is there for at least 6 or 7 hours. Thats not too bad. Lately however, and for the next 5 weeks or so, it's not going to be so nice. He had a 10 page memo due a little while ago and during the process of writing that, he stayed really late - and he has finals in about 5 weeks so he will be staying longer so he can be prepared. For those of you who don't know - the final is basically the only thing that is graded, so how he does on the final determines his grade. And for some reason, first year grades are VERY important. So needless to say - he needs to study a lot and be very prepared which means I will not have a husband for the next 5ish weeks.

Good thing Christmas is after that and we are having a nice little vacation so I can enjoy my husband for a little bit before the next semester starts!

Halloween

We had a fun Halloween! We went and picket out pumpkins and then the Sunday before Halloween, we went over to our friends Audrey and Brads house and carved them. Then on Thursday the 28th I took Jaxon to this "carnival" that the Science Spectrum was having for kids 5 and under. He had such a BLAST! My camera died at the very beginning which I was sooo sad about so I only go one picture, but it was so much fun. They had a maze, jump jump, games, candy, "scary" animals, a stage for kids to go on and show off their costume, and the kids just had a blast!!! The jump jump, stage, and maze were Jaxons favorite. Then that night our stake had a trunk or treat. Jaxon didn't care about the candy... he just wanted to run around! Friday I got super sick and was sick Friday, Saturday, and didn't start feeling better until Sunday night, so that ruined the other plans we had with friends and for the weekend. But Sunday night we watched Hocus Pocus and had trick or treaters come over... so that was fun/weird. Growing up in Utah - when Halloween falls on a Sunday, everyone goes trick-or-treating on Saturday instead... but that is only in Utah I guess. Overall we had fun. Holidays are much funner with a little kid. Jaxon made it such a blast! Here are a few pictures!

Fun in October!

 Here are just a few shots of things we have been doing this month, I can't believe how big Jax is getting!

Coloring and playing with playdough

Climbing up on the chairs... which you will notice are not by the table or he would be on top of the table haha

Play time

Eating his apple at his "work station" haha

He stacks his blankets and toys together and then sits on them lol - not sure why but its funny

Look at that cute face!!!

Still cute even when he is crying

Coloring

Playing at the park

Making bubbles with common household stuff - way fun

Ready for church! 

Playing at the park in the sand!

Playing catch with daddy!

Dan and Jaxon both look scared haha!

He loves to carry around his giant teddy bear

He got tired and had to lay down for a sec haha

Pray

For those of you who know me well... know that I have a "second mom" Denise. Denise has had such an impact on my life and if it wasn't for her - I wouldn't be where I am today. She was in my ward all growing up and I came to not only love her... but her sweet family, especially her parents who were always so generous and kind.

Earlier this week, Denise's father passed away. It was a total shock!!! Her mother has been ill for quite some time now, but her father has been fine and the one taking care of her mother. His death was a tragic accident and left everyone who knew him and his family, asking how could this happen?

I have been having a really hard time with this, not only because I knew him and he was such a good man, but because I care so deeply for Denise and I know the pain she must be going through. I hate that I am not in Utah and can't be there for her. 

Please pray for the Dautel family. 

Wake Up Call

One of my friends posted this LINK on her blog. It's a story about a young LDS couple who lost their baby girl just a few months ago. I was reading the story and just sobbing. Their little girl was not much older than Jaxon and I can't even imagine the pain I would go through if he was not a part of my daily life anymore.

Tragic stories like that often leave the people involved questioning their religion or faith, but this amazing couple did just the opposite, and they relied on their religion and the people around them to get through the tough time.

I feel so blessed to have Jaxon when I know that there are couples that are not able to have children of their own, or when I hear about couples who's babies/children are "taken" away from them.

What would I do if that happened to me? I can't even imagine being able to go on! And then I feel so guilty about feeling frustrated when Jaxon is throwing a tantrum - or feeling like I just want to be alone for a few minutes after being with him all day. I can't believe I let myself feel like that.

None of us know when the precious people in our lives will no longer be here with us. That is a scary thought and not one I want to dwell on, but it has made me realize that every second counts. There are countless songs, poems, and stories about acting like every day is your last, but after reading the story of this young couple who remind me so much of my family and our situation, I really feel like I need to be doing that every day!

I will no longer care if the house is messy during the day - I can clean after Jax is asleep
I will not longer sneak into the office while he is playing to check my e-mail/facebook/blog
Every second he is awake will be about me and him learning, playing, and having fun because he is the most important thing in my life (along with my husband) and they should have ALL my attention.

I love you bubba!