Fun in October!

 Here are just a few shots of things we have been doing this month, I can't believe how big Jax is getting!

Coloring and playing with playdough

Climbing up on the chairs... which you will notice are not by the table or he would be on top of the table haha

Play time

Eating his apple at his "work station" haha

He stacks his blankets and toys together and then sits on them lol - not sure why but its funny

Look at that cute face!!!

Still cute even when he is crying

Coloring

Playing at the park

Making bubbles with common household stuff - way fun

Ready for church! 

Playing at the park in the sand!

Playing catch with daddy!

Dan and Jaxon both look scared haha!

He loves to carry around his giant teddy bear

He got tired and had to lay down for a sec haha

Pray

For those of you who know me well... know that I have a "second mom" Denise. Denise has had such an impact on my life and if it wasn't for her - I wouldn't be where I am today. She was in my ward all growing up and I came to not only love her... but her sweet family, especially her parents who were always so generous and kind.

Earlier this week, Denise's father passed away. It was a total shock!!! Her mother has been ill for quite some time now, but her father has been fine and the one taking care of her mother. His death was a tragic accident and left everyone who knew him and his family, asking how could this happen?

I have been having a really hard time with this, not only because I knew him and he was such a good man, but because I care so deeply for Denise and I know the pain she must be going through. I hate that I am not in Utah and can't be there for her. 

Please pray for the Dautel family. 

Wake Up Call

One of my friends posted this LINK on her blog. It's a story about a young LDS couple who lost their baby girl just a few months ago. I was reading the story and just sobbing. Their little girl was not much older than Jaxon and I can't even imagine the pain I would go through if he was not a part of my daily life anymore.

Tragic stories like that often leave the people involved questioning their religion or faith, but this amazing couple did just the opposite, and they relied on their religion and the people around them to get through the tough time.

I feel so blessed to have Jaxon when I know that there are couples that are not able to have children of their own, or when I hear about couples who's babies/children are "taken" away from them.

What would I do if that happened to me? I can't even imagine being able to go on! And then I feel so guilty about feeling frustrated when Jaxon is throwing a tantrum - or feeling like I just want to be alone for a few minutes after being with him all day. I can't believe I let myself feel like that.

None of us know when the precious people in our lives will no longer be here with us. That is a scary thought and not one I want to dwell on, but it has made me realize that every second counts. There are countless songs, poems, and stories about acting like every day is your last, but after reading the story of this young couple who remind me so much of my family and our situation, I really feel like I need to be doing that every day!

I will no longer care if the house is messy during the day - I can clean after Jax is asleep
I will not longer sneak into the office while he is playing to check my e-mail/facebook/blog
Every second he is awake will be about me and him learning, playing, and having fun because he is the most important thing in my life (along with my husband) and they should have ALL my attention.

I love you bubba!