Wake Up Call

One of my friends posted this LINK on her blog. It's a story about a young LDS couple who lost their baby girl just a few months ago. I was reading the story and just sobbing. Their little girl was not much older than Jaxon and I can't even imagine the pain I would go through if he was not a part of my daily life anymore.

Tragic stories like that often leave the people involved questioning their religion or faith, but this amazing couple did just the opposite, and they relied on their religion and the people around them to get through the tough time.

I feel so blessed to have Jaxon when I know that there are couples that are not able to have children of their own, or when I hear about couples who's babies/children are "taken" away from them.

What would I do if that happened to me? I can't even imagine being able to go on! And then I feel so guilty about feeling frustrated when Jaxon is throwing a tantrum - or feeling like I just want to be alone for a few minutes after being with him all day. I can't believe I let myself feel like that.

None of us know when the precious people in our lives will no longer be here with us. That is a scary thought and not one I want to dwell on, but it has made me realize that every second counts. There are countless songs, poems, and stories about acting like every day is your last, but after reading the story of this young couple who remind me so much of my family and our situation, I really feel like I need to be doing that every day!

I will no longer care if the house is messy during the day - I can clean after Jax is asleep
I will not longer sneak into the office while he is playing to check my e-mail/facebook/blog
Every second he is awake will be about me and him learning, playing, and having fun because he is the most important thing in my life (along with my husband) and they should have ALL my attention.

I love you bubba!